I will miss him

I haven't written in a while. They main reason being is because the biggest thing I wanted to share was not really mine to share. That and the fact that if I am completely honest with myself I was worried with what people would think. I am living it and I don't completely understand.

Joshua is heading home. He flies out from Vancouver homeward bound on May the 1st. I just signed another 6 month lease. In Whistler. For now this is my home.

I love him. With all my heart. And he loves me. But our dreams for the moment are different. No one ever tells you this. That you can meet the man of your dreams and that your happily ever after may not always link up. Stupid fairy tales not giving us all the information.

So here is the low down. We are not breaking up. Yes we are doing the long distance thing. Yes we know how hard it will be. And no we don't want to hear your story about how long distance didn't work for you.. or your friend... or your friends friend. We don't want to lose each other and ironically we have never been closer but sometimes, as the saying goes, you have to do what you have to do.